When I was pregnant, I thought about it all the time.  I was just remembering that feeling as I returned something to my judge's courtroom.  It was this wonderful secret that I just couldn't stop thinking about.

If IVF were to work this second time, it would be nice to find another place for my mind to go.  Not that I don't want to enjoy that feeling of having such a delightful secret, but I want to do a better of of continuing to engage in life and not just live in my head.  That is so hard when my job requires so little of my brain.