No one is making us do this.  I need to remind myself of this occasionally.  And we can change our minds at any point.  It is okay. 

Yesterday I had a moment of panic as I considered what would happen if my husband were to lose his job in the midst of this.  We would just stop.  We would re-group.  It would be fine.  We can always do it another time. 

Holding it all loosely.  That's what I want to do.